I'm very sorry, my dearest girl.
Monday, August 3 // 
Once I speak out, it's just destroying everyone's feelings. I never thought of others' feelings. I shouted at her, 'You cannot be trusted!' How come I do such a despicable thing? I hate myself for doing and saying alllllll the hurtful things to all those innocent people. They have not done anything wrong, so why should I get out there and offend people? Why did I do that? After seeing you cry after reading my letter, I always felt like crying. I felt a sharp pierce on my heart, and my heart was hurting inside out. Why did I say those things that hurt you? You're my very very best friend. Once I let out my feelings, I couldn't feel better, and in the end even worse. I really want to be your best friend again.
I wrote, 'we've been good friends for 4 years.' Were you touched, or were you sad? At that moment I nearly burst into tears, luckily I held it back. Was it a threaten? Cause' Nuerh also agreed, after seeing you cry. We don't trust you, whatfucking crap is that?! Best friends don't trust each other? No that's not right. We went around asking many people, 'What would you do if your best friend cannot be trusted?' They mostly replied break friendship with her/him. I can't afford to break with you, girl. I don't even want to. If we break with you, then you would be extremely upset to the core. If we don't break with you and trust you, then you would tell out all the secrets we have told you. Doesn't it sound like threatening? You never fail to disappoint us after we saw you hanging out with that bitch. We always get upset and angry after seeing you with that bitch. You build up excuses to lie to us about the reason of you with th bitch. Why must you disappoint us? How can we trust you with this., holy hell fucking thing? I really flare up after seeing you with the bitch.
I've let you down, I've failed to be your best friend. I really want to gain back my trust in you. But first, can we both trust all three of us? I want a rejoice. I WANT IT BADLY. I missed those wonderful days, fun, laughter, peace and joy. I miss you. I miss you, girl.
Don't tell me it's over./
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